When I ran the iconic Western States Endurance Run in 2013, I started with an issue in my foot, namely a stress response (which is basically the precursor to a stress fracture) in a metatarsal. In those days there was no wait list, so I decided to give it a try since not starting wouldn’t let anyone else run. That injury turned into an actual stress fracture fairly early in the race, and it was also an especially hot year. As a result I was the very last person through several aid stations and eventually missed the cutoff at Devil’s Thumb (mile 47.8). That injury knocked me out of ultrarunning for over a year, because naturally I kept trying to come back before it was fully healed. By 2016 I was actually running better than I was before the stress response and fracture.
Seven years after that first attempt, I was scheduled to have another chance to run it, thanks to the Coastside Running Club, which runs the Auburn Lake Trails aid station at mile 85.2, entitling the club to an entry into the race. I belong, and volunteered with them many times at Western States and other runs, and got picked in a drawing for their 2020 spot. After an extra year of delay due to the pandemic, it was time to try again.
In the meantime, I had moved to Honolulu. I hired Travis Macy to coach me, and Dina Griffin for nutrition advice. And despite having turned 60 years old, I felt like I had a good chance at finishing this time. My plan targeted a 28-hour finish. The final cutoff is 30 hours, so that didn’t leave a ton of room for error, but I semi-secretly hoped to beat my plan.
But the day had its own plans. The early climbs had my heart rate higher than I wanted or expected, and despite that by the first aid station at mile 10.3, I was behind not only my plan but even the 30-hour pace: my plan was 7:29 AM, 30-hour pace is 7:40 AM, and my actual time was 7:54 AM. Ouch! By Robinson Flat (mile 30.3), my plan was 12:36 PM, 30-hour pace is 1:10 PM, and my actual time was 1:43 PM. They use air horns to tell you when you’re getting close to the cutoff, and I heard the 30- and 20-minute warnings there. It felt like I was ahead of where I was in 2013, but it turns out that the Robinson Flat cutoff has been extended by 20 minutes since then, so I was actually there at about the same time.
Over the next few aid stations I tried to make up time, hoping that if I could stay ahead of the cutoffs and maybe gain a little bit on them, the cooler night air might save me later. I did gain a little bit relative to the cutoff at Miller’s Defeat (the aid station after Robinson Flat), but all the way through Devil’s Thumb (mile 47.8) I was less than 30 minutes ahead of the cutoffs. And that means I remained well behind the 30-hour pace. I think it was also in the section leading to Devil’s Thumb that I first noticed that my stability was a little off, but I assumed it was temporary and ignored it.
On my way down to the next aid station (El Dorado Creek, mile 52.9), I started to wonder if I was leaning to one side (I can never tell for sure). “The Leans,” as I and others have come to call them, had been my downfall at the Tahoe 200. They were also a major issue in several other 100-mile races, when they had come on at mile 75 or later, and generally when I still had a time cushion. But for them to start at only the halfway point when I was also behind the pace needed to finish was going to be a Big Problem. I asked an El Dorado Creek aid station worker if I was leaning, and specifically requested that she be honest. Answer: Yes, I was leaning. Cr*p.
A key promise to myself and to others was that I would keep going until I either made it to the finish or was told I had to stop. So despite being almost certain that I would not be finishing, I continued on. In retrospect I suspect that I could have done this next segment somewhat faster than I did, but only by a little. As it was I arrived at Michigan Bluff (mile 55.7) just barely in time to get what I needed and leave before the final air horn blast signaling the station was closed. I was one of five runners who left in the last minute it was open, and (spoiler alert!) none of us finished (the last person to leave Michigan Bluff and finish was about eight minutes ahead of us, and that was the last woman through Michigan Bluff—lesson: women are tougher than men).
Actually, if a network of friends had not found a pacer for me, whom I first met there at Michigan Bluff, I probably would not have made it out in time, since she (Andrea) got the stuff from my drop bag while I got water. So in keeping with my commitment to keep going if I wasn’t forced to stop, I kept going.
That may not have been the best decision from a safety point of view, though I’m still glad I made it. I think. Besides the lean, I had started to have significantly reduced stability (well beyond the ignored warning sign I got before Devil’s Thumb). Poles and similar devices were specifically disallowed by race rules, so I resisted finding a stick for a while. Eventually at Andrea’s urging I relented, and it helped keep me from falling over a few times. Andrea also helped catch me more than once. Later the course sweeps caught up to us, and one of them took over that task from Andrea. I think I only fell all the way to the ground once, but if there hadn’t been a person, branch, or something else handy, I would have fallen several more times.
Since I was already way beyond the cutoff at the next aid station (Foresthill, mile 62.0), when Andrea found a cell signal she called a friend to pick us up when we reached Bath Road, saving me about a mile and a half of very slow walking. Once I was delivered to Foresthill I officially dropped (the aid station captain, who was there at least an hour after the cutoff, cut off my wrist band, making it official), and was reunited with my wife Connie, who was very relieved to see me. The dreaded DNF (Did Not Finish)…
Western States is a race that is very hard to get into. If I ever tried it again I would have to be even more sure I could finish it than I (erroneously) was this time. That seems extremely unlikely, since my preparation this time was quite thorough, and of course I’m also not getting any younger. So I will leave that spot for other runners. Note that a few years ago I made a similar decision about the HURT 100 race. And I’ll very likely also leave my DNF at the Bighorn 100 unavenged.
What will my running life look like from here on? I’m not sure yet. Because I have nine finishes in 100-mile races, I would like to get at least one more before I retire from that distance. I would like to continue to run some shorter ultras indefinitely. Fixed-time events (e.g., 24 hours) are attractive. I would like to run the Grand Canyon rim-to-rim-to-rim (preferably in one day, but I’m open to taking two days). I would like to improve my swimming enough to consider an iron-distance triathlon. I might want to train to run a marathon fast enough for Boston’s prior (up to 2012) qualifying standards (the new ones seem way out of reach). Figuring out the lean would obviously be good, and my prior assumption that it is purely about core strength does not seem to be correct. So I have rough plans, and my goal is to be less mono-focused.
Running, or even attempting to run, a 100-mile race is much easier when you have help. I had quite a bit, and so I would like to thank the following people, some of whom have already been mentioned above:
- Connie, my very supportive wife and crew
- Travis Macy, my running coach
- Dina Griffin, my nutritionist
- Andrea, my pacer from Michigan Bluff until close to Foresthill
- David, a work colleague from many years ago, who would have been my pacer from Green Gate (mile 79.8) to the finish, if I had gotten that far
- Dennis, a good friend who was willing to drive David to Green Gate in the middle of the night, and who in the days leading up to the race made at least two reconnaissance trips to make sure he knew where that was
- The members of Coastside Running Club, who gave me the spot in the race